In review

It´s been a long week, a week full of work. It seems that only the fact that one will go on holiday creates more work in the week before you go on holiday as you need to finish off more things, transition work to others and do your normal work as well next do it.

So this week was loaded with work, getting up early, coming home late and I really do feel now as definitly not wanting to work the next two weeks.

Still it was fun and I liked doing it.

Then tonight, I came home after more than 10 hours of work without a real break (except for quickly going to the supermarket to get a sandwich) and just felt like immediatly crashing. Totally wrecked and tired. But still I had a meeting with my mentee for 8pm. So I went home, had a bite and left 30 minutes later again.

The mentee meeting was the best relax therapy I could have had. Only talking to my mentee, listening to her thoughts, asking her a lot of questions and seeing her eyes shine and her opening up more and us getting closer, this really made me happy and relaxed.

Now comfortably lying on the couch, still tired, I can close the day "in satisfaction".

In short

In 5 days from now I will be on a beach in Abu Dhabi, enjoying the sun, the sea and the palace :)




In 3 days my holidays start. Off work for full two weeks. Nice! Relaxing! Recharging my batteries..

This thought really movtivates me this week for work.

I also had the kick-off with my mentee and we had another meeting already on Sunday and one will follow this Friday.

So live is treating me well, work is kind of fun and having a mentee really gives me the feeling of doing something for somebody else. Feels good.

Incluso

Today I got the confirmation that I am an official mentor in the Incluso Program from Caritas Zurich. I will have a mentee for a year! The program is about supporting young immgrants on their search for an apprenticeship, helping them to make a plan, think what they want to do, motivating them, pushing them forward etc.

The kick-off workshop and seminar is on the 23th September. There I also meet my mentee for the first time.

How exciting :)

torn

Sometimes I feel torn. Torn between wo versions of my life. Torn between two worlds and two countries.
When my family proposes to move back to Tyrol, being closer to them, that once grandchildren are there they won´t see them much, it hurts. It hurts me because I feel I hurt them by not living in Tyrol any more. It makes me feel I have to choose on day, between my love and my family. My current live and another back home - which is unsure how it would look like.

And then the questions to myself -
would I feel happier back home closer to my family?
would you follow me, If I had the desire to go back?
What would I have to give up, to make my family happier?

in transit

The train journey from Zurich to Jenbach is divied into four parts. Zurich until just over the border (Feldkirch), from Feldkirch all the way over the Arlberg until Landeck, the 45 min from Landeck to Innsbruck and the last final 20min from Innsbruck to Jenbach.
With every part of the journey my thoughts normally wander and different feelings come up.

On the way to my family, first my mind has to clear from work. The week passes by in my head, issues close and new to dos get postponed until Monday. The view on the beautiful Zuri lake supports this and let my mind start to relax.
The more the train leaves the city and the mountains get higer and closer the more my inner excitement to see my family again grows.
Once over the border my heart warms up more and it feels more like "home", more people enter the train with an Austrian accent, houses start to look differently and I feel kind of different . The train ride over the mountains then normally diminishes the last bits of not feeling totally at home. Once I see the steep and sharp mountains of the Inn valley, the small and big cities which the train passes it feels home, 100%.
The stop in Innsbruck always reminds me of my student times and when I lived in the city to finish off my studies.
The final way from Innsbruck to Jenbach is full of anticipation to see and hug my family in a very short amount o ftime and the way there feels so intimate and familiar as I was commuting it nearly 3 years everyday for my studies.

Finally I leave the train, breathe the mountain air and see my family again. I arrived in a different world.

Beining in transit, makes myself tranisiton between two very different worlds.