Open questions

Recently a lot of questions are running through my head, make me think, wonder, scare me, want me do something and keep my inner self agitated. These questions are:

1. Why does it feel that you need to be at least 50 years old and CEO, have power and money to tackle global issues?
   
   
2. Why does it feel that thinking about having kids in two years or so might close a lot of career opportunities?
   
   
3. Why is it that I feel like I nearly burst with knowledge / theories on leadership, processes, change management and so on but need to wait to put it into practice?

Ad 1) I was reading a lot about the WEF, global discussions, how the company I am working for is involved in it, diaries from participants and the blog. Why I am not there? Because I am 24, no CEO, have no (financial) power? These topics are so interesting, and I feel like contributing to the global agenda, but how? Still have not found the ‘right’ opportunity / way for me to do so…

Ad 2) I never wanted to have kids at the age of 18. Just wanted a career and to drive a nice BMW Z4. The ‘older’ I got, the more I want kids, the more I want to be a young mum. I think about children a lot, when the ‘best’ point in time would be to have some (if there is something such as a best point in time) and how it would influence my career. Having a kid would change my life, would change me, would I still want the same than now afterwards? What is it that I want now? The aspiration for a child in my heart is in constant conflict with my brain, listing all the contra points.

Ad 3) I read and read and read. I absorbed so many knowledge about management, leadership, supply chain management, change management, planning processes and so on that it feels I could burst. I want to put it into practice, now not only in 30 years. I want to have responsibility, want to have an impact on people, drive my ideas, drive change. Why is it not possible to just become CEO (well except if I found my own business – thought about that, but the idea is lacking)? I feel like I need a play ground for my ideas and visions to help them to come alive.